I saw everyone eccentric in
search of something, something I too was longing for. Something so much desired
that makes them run from dawn till dusk. Everyone wants it so badly and trying
to make it their own forever by any way possible.
Everyone has his own way to
search for ‘it’. Someone is searching for it in money, some in relationships and
some in love.
Do they still get ‘it’?
I too tried to search as I was
told many times that I don’t know the importance of the thing that makes the
world go round – Money.
But what I saw was, children trampling
down the faith and love of their parents for money, parents who spent every
moment of their days, every ounce of their money, their countless sleepless
nights, and their love and in fact spent themselves for their children.
I found siblings to belittle the
ties of blood for money – those who spent their childhood together, sharing
their toys and candies, sharing laughs and cries, sharing clothes and secrets,
and promised to hold on to these fragile strings of warmth and affection throughout
their lives, they too forgot everything for money.
I saw the closest of all, husband
and wife not left virgin with the spell of money – the two souls who once swear
to complete the other, who took the vows to face any misfortune protecting the
other, who promised to be together till their last breath. Money demeans all
those vows, making them worthless.
I was disappointed when I was not
able to get my share of ‘it’ in the most precious thing the whole world is
inclined to. I needed to think again, where should I go, where should I look
for ‘it’?
I then tried to move on to the
next treasure, the one that makes people crazy and dumb, makes them dive into the
sea of emotions and then fight to come out of it to find their own existence –
Relationships.
I started with zeal and zest to
find it this time for sure. But what I saw, no relationship was even close to
give me a sign for what I was looking for. All of the relationships were choking
under the burden of selfishness, expectations, hurt, lies, greed, false egos, fear,
hollow pretensions and shallow personalities.
Parents coerce their kids with
their preferences and priorities on the name of love and care they have given
by far. Whether it’s related to choosing the life partner or deciding on their
ambitions/career, their consents are biased because of the societal standards.
Should they not let the child decide? Not all of those expectations are
meaningless and their support and blessings are always required however, are the
hollow pretensions for the society so much precious that it does not matter how the life of their child will shape? Children are supposed to agree to what parents
have chosen for them, is it a scale to measure how much the children love them
in return? Or the purest form of love, that parents have, too has its
limitations to succumb to selfishness and egos. The worst form of it is honour
killing. Does it prove that their honour is so big that killing their kids is a
mockery of life and this relation?
Likewise, children are no less in
proving that they too are not selfless, and have their own motives (I think
everyone knows what I mean as children often set up such examples) to be good
to their parents. Once those motives are fulfilled they tread their own path no
matter what their parents go through. Or they are so much settled in their lives
that they just don’t have the time to think about the old people who cannot be
of any good to them now.
Talk about brothers and sisters
or talk about husband and wife, no relationship is spared. Siblings are
suffering from the burden of self-interests and their false egos. A marriage is
no more a relation of trust and respect but of controlling and
dissatisfactions. It’s bearing the load of despair and uncertainties.
So, I asked myself once again - where
should I go and search for ‘it’? I have already tried money and relationships,
the most enduring as people believe. But it was all in vain.
Now I thought I should try the
last but the most eternal of all, as it is called, something that is beyond
forever – Love. I heard people say, Love is God. It makes people to forget
themselves, purifies their souls and allows them to experience the feeling
without which life is meaningless. I was sure that this time I will succeed and
no one can stop me to have my piece of ‘it’. How long will I be kept away from
it?
Someone cannot think and then
fall in love. It’s as natural as flow of river, as a blow of wind, as flowers
bloom, as we breathe. But does this fall truly give a rise to anyone? Is Love
as pure as it is called and believed? Or just saying the three words
‘I Love
You’ is left as something that can be said to anyone but that no more fathoms
the essence of life. Is falling for someone is so hollow that love now means
having a girlfriend or a boyfriend rather finding a soul mate? These days, saying ‘I Love You’ is as quick
and plain as it is to say ‘Sorry, we are through’. All happens in a spur of the
moment and not as a call straight from the heart.
I saw some people who swear to
have experienced love in its purest and serene form. But somewhere they too
agree that life becomes nothing but a suffering that is brought by love. The
crux of love is pain and soreness. Or somewhere love too perishes at the dawn
of distrust, useless expectations, lies and hurt.
So I sat down as I found ‘it’ in
none of the three most searched and believed treasures. They were all empty for
me. I again thought - where should I go now and whom should I ask for ‘it’? Time
passed and I realized there is still some where I have not yet searched.
I searched you here, I searched
you there,
But at last I found you somewhere
so near…
You are the link between my heart
and my lips when I smile,
And I was looking for you running
around so many miles…
I saw you hugging the subtle things
we think are redundant,
At last, I found you hiding in
the womb of every moment…
I heard you in the screams of
kids running out of the school when the bell rings,
I smelt you in the fragrance of
wet soil,
I breathed you in the breeze at
the time of dawn,
I listened to you in chirping of
birds at twilight,
I saw you twinkling in the bright
star-studded night,
I drenched myself in you with the
pouring rain,
I measured you in the expansion
of clear blue sky,
I felt you in the tenderness of flowers,
I appreciated you rolling down from
the eyes in fortunate moments,
I caught you peeping out from the
innocence of a child,
I searched you in the prayers to
God,
I got you as a gift in the
blessing of elders,
I earned you in the faith of people,
I cherish you in the love of my
friends,
Happiness, you are in nothing still
in everything,
You are nowhere but within me,
All that matter is how I look at
the things…
